I've always loved meat. My mother can still recall the first food I reached for as a baby; a big juicy hamburger.
It's no secret that one of my favorite meals is a burger. It's my go-to quick meal and honestly, nothing beats meat and cheese between bread.
But lately, I've been feeling different about it. Don't get me wrong, my love for big juicy burgers has not changed. However, my love for cows has.
dI have many friends who are vegetarian, vegan, or pescatarian. I never imagined myself living that type of lifestyle. And as corny and cliche as this sounds, I recently watched a video showcasing mass production of beef and was absolutely horrified. I cried for hours on end. I reached out to some of my closest friends and family, telling them I just cannot go back after seeing the horrific way we slaughter meat.
Some gave me advice to get over it, some told me how important it is to eat meat, some tried to console me and remind me that killing animals is part of the food chain. But nobody understood the volume in which I believed that I just CANNOT eat beef anymore.
It's a scary thought to me.
"What will I replace it with?"
"What if I crave a burger?"
"What if I need to eat red meat to be healthy and strong?"
"How will I feel if I fail and eat beef?
These questions flooded my brain, and I knew I couldn't simply say, "NO MORE BEEF" and that would be it.
That type of commitment takes discipline, dedication and sacrifice. This is a habit I've easily succumb to my entire life. I've never decided NOT to eat beef. Until now.
I can't say that I will never eat beef ever again, this decision is not like choosing a shirt to wear for the rest of the day. Call me a commitment-phobe, but making a decision like this is very intimidating and I know that I have to make baby steps. So when I woke up this morning and knew I wanted a burger for dinner tonight, I decided to take my first step towards honoring this commitment and being faithful to my beliefs.
The answer to my questions wasn't hard to find. Vegans and vegetarians have been doing this for years. So I set out to make myself the most delicious, "meatiest" black bean burger I could ever imagine.
Recipe will be posted Sunday night!
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